Virgin Vogue
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Virgin Vogue
Don’t Think About Her
Margaret Thatcher Has An Inalienable Right To Shut The Fuck Up
A Song For Venus/Girls Like Us
Solidarity, Until It Gets Too Sapphic
Patrick Fucking Harvie
Brandon Teena
The Well Of Loneliness
Here’s To The Kids Who Wear Purple
Celebrate Your Life
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Virgin Vogue
The pattern of the strobe,
followed the bass line,
mimicking the petrified pounding of my heart.
It didn’t have to be a big deal,
but it was me,
so,
of course it was.
I have a habit of rising from my watery grave,
staring up at the stars,
and inventing reasons to be anxious,
about the simplest things.
I scorched the Earth,
in sensible heels,
on my way to break out of the chains I put myself in.
I was going to be free,
in a very subdued sense,
presenting my secrets to the underground wonderland,
with my heart in my throat,
and my throat in the clutches of my dream girl.
I don’t come here often,
but I plan on making a habit of it.
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Don’t Think About Her
I was lying in bed.
My hand was somewhere,
that I don’t like to talk about.
I was thinking about men.
The only wet thing in my bed,
was my face,
as I wept,
knowing I couldn’t think away the truth,
or the way I desperately wanted to think of her.
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Margaret Thatcher Has An Inalienable Right To Shut The Fuck Up
British citizens have an inalienable right,
to flirt with the far right,
on boat rides,
big rallies,
and brightly lit stages.
An inalienable right,
to evade tax,
if your will lands in the right pockets.
An inalienable right to send the poor to war,
for oil,
and a special relationship,
to meet the curious and carefree eyes of civilian children,
with missiles.
We can go wild.
We have an inalienable right,
if we get into government,
to creep down the corridors,
of primaries and nursaries,
snatching up free school meals,
milk and pencils,
from the tiny hands and mouths,
who want to learn,
about their inalienable rights,
which will turn out not to be as rigid,
as those of the raptors,
that haunt the hallways,
looking for new ways to make the public pessimistic.
However,
as the prototype for the robot,
who ruled over us,
once said,
without the awkward dancing and meme potential of her successor,
that we British citizens,
in a free and fair society,
do not have an inalienable right to be gay.
Murder,
tax evasion,
stealing milk from kids,
and making friends with paedophiles is fine though 🙂
Margaret Thatcher has an inalienable right,
to shut the fuck up.
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A Song For Venus/Girls Like Us
New York knows you.
Small stem,
to tepid titan,
coaxing the clouds,
from the sky,
and the stars to the sidewalk.
They gather,
gasping at your glow,
as you break free,
and breathe,
for the first time,
on your own terms.
Small smile,
small girl,
big dreams,
at the ball,
on the roof,
gazing at the gallant night,
that belongs to you.
Take the night.
Take the stars,
from the sidewalk,
decorate your darling face,
and walk,
walk,
walk,
to bloom,
in the blue of the morning light.
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Solidarity, Until It Gets Too Sapphic
They lay their lips,
on our feminist features,
barely even a kiss,
but it’s enough to convince them,
that they’re solid in their solidarity.
Everybody says I’m a good girl,
until they notice I’ve been seen,
in Notting Hill,
a little too often,
a little late at night.
I make history,
just by falling in love,
but love is a triviality,
that blackens your image irredeemably,
apparently.
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Patrick Fucking Harvie
I once heard Europe’s favourite bisexual,
(apart from myself,
obvs),
Mr Patrick Fucking Harvie,
King of the climate change debate,
well respected recycler,
and the only MSP that Donald Trump truly fears,
state,
(perhaps I am paraphrasing),
that it was time to be far less tolerant,
of intolerance.
It’s hard to disagree,
when you consider that nobody ever died,
from being told to stop calling someone a queer,
but we have lost too many of our family,
expired in an avalanche,
that built day by day.
Fag.
Queer.
Pervert.
Deviant.
Dyke.
Why does it have to be like this?
Why do we accept,
that our souls must be sacrificed,
for the sake of a homophobe’s freedom?
Why do we watch each generation,
falling as the hatred hurtles through the rainbow we wrap ourselves in?
How can we let another generation go through what we went through?
Patrick Fucking Harvie,
is both environmentally friendly,
and correct.
It is time,
to be less tolerant of intolerance,
because the kids deserve better than this.
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Brandon Teena
Life tried to speak,
another existence,
decades of denial,
that decayed,
until he was standing,
saying his name,
under the starless sky,
hushed and hopeful,
that the world would echo back,
and suddenly,
the sky was so full of stars,
saying his name,
hushed and hopeful,
that he could hear them.
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The Well Of Loneliness
My love for her,
was a natural,
God given state,
sent from the clouds that surrounded sunrises,
that we’d often watch,
our fingers finding each other,
in the camouflage of gentle grass,
meeting in the muted mellow moments of quiet,
when nobody could catch us,
capturing each other in a kiss.
She was bliss.
With her in my arms,
and on my mind,
the questions of my quest for fulfilment,
were finally forgotten,
and I could exist,
not divided,
divine and decidedly at peace,
knowing that I was born,
to kiss her,
full on the lips,
as a lover.
I tell you of her,
not out of joy,
dear reader,
or for the heartbreak of denying you,
(and me) a happy ending.
She is gone.
I have spent six months,
moping in the meadow,
swearing at the sunrise,
for not bringing her back when it visits.
Pouring through page after page,
of this book she recommended.
Of course,
it ended.
Whether we die,
or simply drift apart,
the gays shall always be buried.
I read The Well Of Loneliness,
to see if I could find a way,
to win back her heart,
but,
all I have is nonsensical notes,
and tear stained cheeks.
I suppose,
I’ll sail this ship alone.
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Here’s To The Kids Who Wear Purple
You taught me to love,
showing me how to put familiar fondness
in the single fondant fancy I would find,
hiding in my lunch box,
alongside salad sandwiches,
that tasted of
“Have a good day.”
“Come home safe.”
“You are the thing I have loved most,
in this wild, wide world.”
I watched you wash my clothes,
turning them from fashion to compassion,
sending me into the world each day,
wrapped in wishes that I would be wise and well,
sending me to sleep,
with stories,
soft pyjamas,
and a small nightlight made of the stars from the sky,
you always taught me was mine to aim for.
So,
why,
when I loved someone,
who loved me too,
the way you taught me,
with kindness,
selflessly,
more than I had ever loved anyone,
in this wild, wide world,
did you suddenly stop?
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Celebrate Your Life
Don’t go.
That’s vague,
non committal enough to be comfortable,
but I hope you’ll see through it all,
understanding that when I am with you,
I am home.
I don’t know you.
That’s the truth,
maybe it makes this confusing,
but I hope we’ll have more summer days,
parading and praising each other,
here,
our home.
I miss them.
That’s strange to say,
but it’s true,
and I’d miss you,
though all of you are mysteries to me.
We have lost so much,
threatened by more loss every day,
so please,
come home,
and celebrate your life.
Please don’t go.
That’s a lot to ask,
it might not even be something you control.
When you bleed,
I am reeling,
my heart tied in knots,
because we are a part of each other’s pictures,
thrown together,
because people couldn’t understand us,
but we built ourselves a home.
I love you.
That’s all I have to offer you,
but if you take it,
or if you don’t,
I’ll fight for you.
Just make sure you come home,
every now and then,
so we can spend the summer days,
just living.
Celebrate your life,
celebrate what we have,
here,
built through the years,
by those who we lost,
and those who we have yet to meet.
Celebrate your life,
with me,
at home.
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Sincerely, Jennifer x 