You told me that you would happily die in my warm embrace, and suddenly, my arms were ice. It isn’t nice, but that’s just life, sweet darling, and I’ve been hardened, like honey at the back of the cupboard, unsure if I will ever flow freely again.

I became besotted with my suffering at an early age, bewitched, and addicted, endlessly longing for pain, because it numbed the aching want that wounded my soul, spreading through each of my bones until I was dripping with poison. I am so cruel, because I have been kept captive by the idea that at any…

I’ve been waiting for her to catch me, but she’s as elusive as she is essential. Out of sight, out of reach, and I am almost out of time, hurtling down every road and every path, hunting her, with longing in my veins, and heat within my heart.

Night falls, and I read your letter again by candle light, mouthing your words to the empty room, as the flame of the candle found its way to my heart. I glow, like a warm evening sky, and you must be somewhere close, glowing too.