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Internalised Misogyny Is A Sickness/I Am, In Fact, Like The Other Girls

I am,

in fact,

like the other girls.

Sick of being sent into battle against the other girls,

sick of being taught to hate the other girls,

sick of the deep sickness of internalised misogyny,

that makes its way deep under your skin,

painting hatred through the veins,

until you are poisoned.

Grasping at your throat,

breathless,

friendless,

alone in the dark,

surrounded by the realisation that this war had no meaning,

because your enemy was a mirror,

or a magazine,

that picked out your flaws,

to sell you a dream that could never come true.

Your enemy was a world that tells girls what to do,

how to speak,

how to dress.

“Be meek, little girls” the world says,

while stabbing us in the back because we’re too plain,

because we’re too ashamed to speak up for ourselves.

They want us meek,

but loud.

Respectable,

but they never really clarify what that means,

because it changes from girl to girl,

and order to order,

and I’m starting to think it means nothing it all.

I am,

in fact,

just like the other girls.

I am sick of being told that there is something wrong with the other girls.

I don’t even think that there are “other girls”.

I think we are all just girls,

powerful and so full of potential,

that it sends lightning to the spineless,

so they desperately fight to control us,

keeping us locked in the dark,

fighting amongst ourselves.

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Good Things Are Coming Soon

Escaping out the window,

I rest on the roof,

chirping like a little bird,

soaking up the sweetness of the sun.

I write a love song with the harmonising wind,

keeping a fragment of your voice inside my inner monologue,

for those moments when my body feels like it can’t survive another day without being held.

I can survive,

but I won’t be happy about it.

I still find things to smile about,

the thought of the first smiles we’ll exchange,

soon,

a long kiss,

after interrupted months,

where I held you,

only in my dreams.

Soon.

Good things are coming soon.

I tell myself that every time the time of day dictates I should wake,

and the world starts running, without me.

I catch up,

eventually,

knowing that good things are coming soon,

but until then,

my only peace is when I write under the moon,

on the tiny bit of roof that I can escape to,

through the window of my bedroom.

I tell the moon that good things are coming,

and she tells me that she can’t wait.

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Iris Bentley – Another Victim Of British Justice

There is a lonely room at the back of the house,

an empty chair at breakfast,

a path that lays dormant, never walked because he never got the chance.

Time stopped when he left,

I know you didn’t feel it, but I did.

There was a part of me,

torn from my soul,

separated,

tormented by rope,

taken,

because somebody made a “mistake”,

put in place by a longing for revenge,

a lack of empathy…

“Oh sweetheart,

don’t you see that SOMEONE had to swing,

to keep the world turning?”

I hear that,

from lips that don’t even think I deserve an explanation,

so they don’t speak,

but I see it,

I hear it,

I feel it,

in everything you do.

I see it in the way you look away when my mother cries.

I hear it in the way you are silent when the time for a reprieve comes.

I feel it, when nine o’clock comes, and I am at sea, sinking in the tears of the many nine o’clocks, and all their misery.

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Phil Spector Was A Murderer and An Abusive Misogynist

Ronnie sits atop a golden coffin,

her heels click a beat on the glass top,

talking to rainbows,

about barbed wire and bullets that threatened to run down her face like tear drops.

She sings a sweet song of freedom,

reclaiming the voice that was locked behind golden gates and walls of waiting.

Lana lies atop a golden cloud,

watching women out of her reach,

reach out to her,

saying her name,

wailing for justice.

She watches an elevator go down,

to the basement,

evil deep inside,

returning to his hellish home,

where he will be nothing, forever.

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I Should Not Be Seeing You

Late love,

under the stars,

under covers,

under the influence of how soft your voice is when you’re with me,

how soft your hands behave when they’re with me.

Midnight rendezvous,

tied together,

tied up in this mad romance,

my veins are clean,

but I am intoxicated,

eyes closed as you pull me closer,

the kiss felt around the world,

because my world is right here,

between your sheets.