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If I Loved Him

If I loved him, I would be staring fear directly in the face, hoping that I could hold myself together, torn by the temptation to tear myself limb from limb, rebuilding myself into the girl I am, in his dreams. I hold my eyes open, so that I can’t sleep, hoping he’ll mimic me, because […]

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Stay Together

It’s all good, you know, because I have learned to live with a bed of knives, that I fall onto, every night, when you conclude that my time in the clouds is done. I’ve started to say, every time you say nothing at all, that I’m just going through phases, and stages, on the road […]

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The Early Christmas Present

December dawns, I open up new doors every day, brave enough to be unafraid, learning to live again, fairytales and fairy lights, illustrious, illuminated, inside my own mind, breaking out, whenever you are close. The sky is frosted, sweet hope is in the air, as choirs kill the silence of the evening, on streets, bathed […]

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The Sadder But Wiser Girl

Seven AM, and I’m staring rather than sleeping, risking madness as I risk assess, again and again, how dangerous it is, to be your little doll. Dropping your name in every dark boulevard, I walk home, all alone, the moon can sense you’ve staked your claim on me, and hides behind the clouds, crowding all […]

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In Which Jennifer Asserts Herself, For The Very First Time

If you ever get the urge to look me up, to hook up, to check up, on what I’m up to, don’t. I’ve spent so long, trying to stand up, to grow up to be the person I knew I had the power to be, before I met you. You’re not the worst person I’ve […]

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