It’s that time again.
Time to break my arms and legs,
let myself fit neatly and uncomfortably into the ethnicity box on a form.
For many years,
I’ve ummed and ahhed about how all the stars in the sky that fell down and created my human form can be categorised.
Brown eyes that have been to many continents,
rambunctious round strands of her that won’t sit down, because these curls have tales,
things to tell you, that you wouldn’t believe.
A skilled tongue, that pleases everyone she meets, in many languages (okay, three and a half), so what do I call her?
Which box do I tick?
My nose is thick and prominent,
once marked for surgery but now begrudgingly accepted,
but I don’t know how to tell the census that I’m not sure if she came from my Mum or my Dad.
My pen is staring up at me,
not knowing what to make of me,
and I am staring back,
with a varied background,
not knowing what to make of me either.
Once again, I am not English, apparently,
because the form says that is only for whites,
and I’m only half right for the red and white flag,
so down the form I go,
to the land of minority ethnics and mullatos.
What the fuck will my kids tick?
I suppose it depends on who I fuck,
and how many drops of their grandfather find their way into their blood from mine.
Shall I curse them to endless umming and ahhing at presumptuous and preclusive boxes,
or will their road be easier, brighter and white passing?
It’s just a form, I suppose.
Just a box ticking exercise,
so I shouldn’t think about it too much,
because I don’t have time for an identity crisis today,
but I am a map, with many pins,
and this is a small box, with a small mind,
that isn’t ready for someone like me.
I don’t think it will ever be ready for someone like me.