Here are some of the answers to your questions 🙂
Sophie asked “What Is Your Personality Type?”
I don’t know. I tried to take one of those tests but I got distracted. That could give you some insight, maybe?
Gabby asked “Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend at the moment?”
Not really. I’m kind of seeing a few people, in a very removed and distant way, that is less “seeing them” and more “talking to them occasionally, sometimes going on dates, and like, whatever”. As you guys will know, I’m not the best at relationships, but it’s 2018, and I’m not trying to die alone, so I’m just trying out a few things, seeing what happens, and generally just hoping for the best. I find dating very hard, as I’ve said before, because it seems very impersonal and immediate sometimes, but I’m doing my best.
Amberlee asked “Who is You’re A Crushing Bore about?”
Me, but also people I know. It was kind of a self drag that ended up also dragging other people, but in a gentle and loving way, that was trying to be encouraging.
Rich asked “How did you write 2AM?”
I actually wrote the whole thing on my phone. I know some people will think this is cheating, but, I mean, whatever, man. I mainly used Garageband to do it, and while it does make things a little easier, you do have to kind of know what you’re doing, so I wouldn’t really say it was cheating, personally (then again, would I actually admit to that?). When I did my GCSE in music at school, I was really interested in the modules we did on electronic music, and the different possibilities, so I’ve always been very into that. I do actually play a little guitar, and that, but doing it that way would mean booking studio time, and paying other people to help me, and I’m a cheap queen.
Sheree asked “How do you pick which poems to read in your podcast?”
I want to say something really smart about how I pick a theme for the episode and then choose poems based on that, but I really don’t. Generally, I will start with anything new that I have to share, and then just go through my older stuff to find something that I haven’t read yet, that I feel like doing. There isn’t a real science or magic formula to it, I’m afraid, it’s just whatever I have to hand, that I think I can get through in five takes or less (believe me, it really can take that long).
Kyle asked “What are some random facts about you?”
I pretended to be allergic to seafood for several years, because of a traumatic experience involving basically being force fed fish by this douche bag. I insisted that it closed my airways, because I thought the usual seafood allergy symptoms of stomach problems was unglamourous and unbecoming. I also have tinnitus in my right ear. It isn’t much of a problem, but I tend to use subtitles for pretty much everything because sometimes it can make it difficult to hear if I’m in a loud environment.
Riley asked “Did you like working with Jonathan Windsor at IPW:UK, and would you do it again?”
Yes, and yes. Jonathan is a really great person, and one of my favourite people I ever met through working in wrestling. He was very supportive and very kind to me, when some people weren’t, and I will always appreciate and remember that. I have always been supportive of his career, since before we worked together, because I think what he does is a really fresh spin on a classic character type, so I’d love to work with him again if the opportunity came up and we both had the time for that. I don’t know about working with other people, so much, because everything has changed, and I don’t really know many of them that well, but definitely Jonathan, and a few other talents that I really admire, and am familiar with enough to explore a working relationship. I’ll always be grateful to IPW:UK, as well as other promotions like Progress, for taking a chance on me, and giving me opportunities. I think IPW:UK has gone through some drastic changes with the new management and they are really building a new legacy, which is really cool to see. I think Billy Wood is doing a fantastic job at delivering a great product, and also being one of the leading voices for making British wrestling a safer and more transparent environment. I keep meaning to look into EVE’s new academy, because it seems like an ideal place for me to continue training and explore what would be possible, and I know for a fact that Rhia O’Reilly is probably one of the best trainers a person could wish for. We’ll see, there is plenty of time left in 2018.
Josie asked “Is Come Dancing still your favourite thing that you wrote?”
Yes and no. I have a lot of other things that I think are far better from a technical standpoint, which is understandable because Come Dancing is now several years old. However, Come Dancing is, like, emotionally my favourite because I have very fond memories of when and where I wrote it.
That’s all for this edition, kids. If you want to ask me a question, you can send them in here.
I hope you’ve enjoyed the weekend. You can now watch my latest video, which contains the brand new poem “Palo Alto Passion”.
I really hope you enjoy it!
Coffee broke the ice,
glacial to feverish,
we burned out too fast.
Fire and stone.
The whole place was a beautiful blaze,
I could hear diegetic distraction,
soaring streams of strings,
from the charcoaled crowd at the table beside us.
I sipped cider,
slipped ideas into your handsome head,
to trembling fingers,
promises of Palo Alto passion.
as good things always do,
and good girls,
and good boys always must,
we burned out too fast.
I have updated the podcast episode guide and you can check out the new episode here.
On the latest episode, I talked about romantic frustration, letting go of the past and biphobia, as well as reading some new poems. Hope you enjoy the episode!
COME FIND ME
You never weatherproofed your roof,
and so I came,
with the rain,
dripping into your daydreams,
washing away the nights of low self esteem,
waiting in the gutter,
for you to need me again.
I dance in the damp,
to the sound of your thunder,
love for each striking stroke,
down my spine,
to a place you only know,
when we are alone,
dripping in desperation,
drowning in things
you know you should sail past.
I’ve leaked into your life,
drops of me in your dinner,
your children swim in my kindness.
We couldn’t pull ourselves from this whirlpool,
so we sink to the ocean beds,
paddling in deep, deep trouble.
I’ve counted the seconds your eyes explore me,
as you walk me home,
as you put up your umbrella,
drinking in one last look,
whispering something about silly little girls,
grumbling about getting a new babysitter,
you never do,
you just return,
with a slight adjustment of your coat,
that covers too much,
and kiss me,
on the cheek,
making it clear,
you’ll let your home wash away,
in our flood.
COME FIND ME
You can now check out my new video, which features a brand new poem.
I hope you enjoy it!
You spent two hours,
telling me you’d never break my heart.
You spent two hours,
breaking my heart,
just from wrapping it,
that it suffocated.
about your nights,
as a werewolf.
My fingers lost in your fur,
the flurries of your broken restraint.
I am scarred,
under the stars,
but in the morning
you overflowed with apologies,
when the moon was put to bed,
and you awoke,
worried about what I thought of you.
When the sun is in our eyes,
you’re a crushing bore,
but I’ve got a crush on you.
My hands speak a language that I know you understand,
but most days,
you pretend your whole body is deaf.
I play on the tracks,
hoping for a highspeed service,
to take me somewhere sublime,
but you’re still waiting at the station,
ignoring green light,
after green light.
and you miss,
by not playing at all.
I stole your mind,
from your back pocket,
in some bar,
where you were so interesting,
before you shrank to the ground,
found naked in a field,
and I am marked,
missing the man you become,
when the moon comes out.