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If I Loved Him

If I loved him, I would be staring fear directly in the face, hoping that I could hold myself together, torn by the temptation to tear myself limb from limb, rebuilding myself into the girl I am, in his dreams. I hold my eyes open, so that I can’t sleep, hoping he’ll mimic me, because […]

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Stay Together

It’s all good, you know, because I have learned to live with a bed of knives, that I fall onto, every night, when you conclude that my time in the clouds is done. I’ve started to say, every time you say nothing at all, that I’m just going through phases, and stages, on the road […]

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The Early Christmas Present

December dawns, I open up new doors every day, brave enough to be unafraid, learning to live again, fairytales and fairy lights, illustrious, illuminated, inside my own mind, breaking out, whenever you are close. The sky is frosted, sweet hope is in the air, as choirs kill the silence of the evening, on streets, bathed […]

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Closer To Madness

I know I have to let go, to be able to let you in. I know I have to cast out my regrets, so I have room to regress, into a place where I had not been punished, simply for hoping and dreaming. I know you are not the echo, that I sing to myself […]

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Mwah

Layering lip gloss, daring him to do his worst, playful, I pretend that I am blind, to the desires that bind him to me, as if I cannot hear, what his hands scream. I ask him, with one glance of my eyes, to the lust in his lap, what his plans are for tonight, and […]

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