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Writer and Musician Jennifer Juan releases new book, penned during Coronavirus lockdown

Jennifer Juan is celebrating the upcoming release of her brand new poetry collection, “Confessions of a Self Aware Manic Pixie Dream Girl,” which will be available in both eBook and physical formats, on Friday the 29th of May 2020 and will be released worldwide.

Salvaged from the chaos and challenges of the UK wide lockdown, that occurred due to Covid-19, Confessions of a Self Aware Manic Pixie Dream Girl is a refreshingly frank take on the events unfolding around the world, and a human look at the struggles of loneliness, self doubt, and the journey back to hoping.

Speaking about her latest collection, Jennifer Juan said, “I spent a lot of time during the lockdown, working on creative projects, to keep me in a good place. The lockdown has been hard, for everyone, and writing was my sanctuary.”

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With the launch of her new radio show, Diverse Verse, as part of Alphabet Radio, and the release of her dual poetry and music release Deus Ex Machina, 2020 has already been a very busy year for Jennifer Juan, with further projects confirmed for later in the year, including a new EP, Hunnymoonin’, to be released this summer, on Underground Wonderland Records.

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“Confessions of a Self Aware Manic Pixie Dream Girl” is available now, in ebook and paperback format, from Amazon, Barnes and Noble, Smashwords, Kobo, Apple iBooks, and other major retailers. For further information, and to discover more of Jennifer Juan’s work, please visit her website,

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Cowboy Films

A myriad of matriarchs surround the stereo,

someone is making sandwiches,

that nobody will taste,

but will eat,

out of habit,

and politeness.

I pull down my dress,

aiming for knees,

I will never reach,

wondering what you would think of me,

if you weren’t obliged,

by family ties,

to love me.

Generations span the room,

holding hands,

handing out tissues,

swapping stories,

celebrating through the sad exchange of pleasantries,

and drinks.

I’m thinking again,

about myself,

and what you thought.

It has suddenly struck me,

that I don’t really know you at all,

though I do not know a year of my life,

without you.

I take a sandwich,

subtly sending it to it’s doom,

at the bottom of the kitchen bin.

Your old flat is overcrowded,

by grief,

the air is thick and lonely,

and I wonder if I’ll ever stop wondering,

why I left it too late,

to sit with you,

cross legged,

by your chair,

watching cowboy films,

with sandwiches.

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Sincerely, Jennifer x – S04E35 – Dropping names, for the drama! Featuring Lana Del Rey, Princess Margaret and Dominic Cummings…

On today’s episode, Jennifer shares some new poems, and talks about self sufficiency, writing in quarantine, discovering The Crown on Netflix, relating to the royal family, and the telenovela that is Lana Del Rey’s Instagram feed.

Jennifer also updates you on the recent events in British politics, including the government’s reversal on NHS surcharges for NHS workers, the collapse of Rishi Sunak’s fandom, and the comings and goings of Dominic Cummings.

You can find the new episode on your favourite podcast provider here, and you can find the episode guide for Sincerely, Jennifer x here.

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I was on the pier,

playing my part in filling the ocean,

collapsing under the chaos of home,

bound to return,

but broken at the thought.

For a moment,

for the very first time,

I was alone.

There had never been a voice,

or even a familiar, friendly hand to hold,

just a promise of forever,


guiding light,

that surrounded me,


it suddenly went out.

My devotion,


as I bled into the beach,

begging for the space to breathe,

for believing to be easier,

for just a second.