Yellow light is my first sight,
of course, I fell asleep with the light on,
unable to keep myself from our dreams.
When I woke up,
every single time I do, in fact,
regular as clockwork, I swear,
every time, that it will be the last time.
Too many times have gone,
heavenly hell, tender torture,
every time, I beg myself to spare myself.
Let me save myself,
oh, why can’t I love myself?
Value myself?
Enchant myself, so I can be free?
Oh, I know.
Forever is a long time,
my soul seeks it, constantly,
yet I thought she was done,
living each day at a time for once.
It was never real,
forever never is,
even with you.
Sincerely, Jennifer x 