You said that loving me was hard to do, because you never had a clue what was real and what was just another reel of my endless Hollywood saga. If I was to tell you the truth, I’d say that I wasn’t sure either. The lights are flickering as you find me, somewhere in the…

I am busy, building,burrowing down and finding my bearings,bricks on bricks,one breath after the other,one step, and then another,because I have so much to do,and I don’t have the luxury of letting myself fail. I am constructing,while distracting myself from the volcano that erupts around my shoulders.Reconstructing my confidence,grasping at the presence of hope,keeping it…

Don’t let me let myself down again.I’ve been falling for so long that I feel still,suspended in the air,softly screaming.Her name is sewn inside my veins,explosives pacing up and down my rib cage because she spoke to me again,and my body feels like it’s too small for my racing, convulsing brain. The sunlight is sinking…

Blood and soil make a home under my fingernails,the water in my bathtub boils,and I start to think about why it all had to end this way.I wonder if she’ll remember me when I was fighting off hordes,or if she’ll remember me pure, on a Sunday,barely up to my father’s knee.I used to have daisies…