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The Actual Moon

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I swallowed your sweet sayonara.
Wallowing in waiting,
for you to change your mind,
or tell me it was a joke.
I had icy air,
running to and fro,
through my throat,
and open mouth,
staring open mouthed,
at the denial,
deep in my veins.
I love you,
you know.
Do you know that?

I was going to buy you the moon,
because,
it’s a wonderful life,
when you’re sat with me,
just smiling,
and the moon might make you stay a while,
and smile for me again.
When you kissed me,
tonight,
I knew the shops had closed,
and I’d left things too late,
and instead,
I thought about how I’d fit the moon in a bag for life.
It hurt less,
than admitting,
there was no price I could pay,
to make you hear me,
when I stand here,
telling you,
that I love you,
you know.
Maybe you don’t know?

It’s all fine.
I promise.
I’ll get that moon into that bag,
and the air will stop staring,
if you just come back,
if you just sit here,
on this bench,
that isn’t judging us,
(or so it says),
and let me figure out what to do.
I know the shops are closed,
and your mind along with them,
but I love you,
you know
and I know that you know that,
because you have to know,
after all this time.
I know you know,
that I love you.
Don’t you?

Don’t you?

Hey,
I got you the moon,
you know,
the actual moon.
Like the one up in the sky,
THE ACTUAL MOON.
I’ll keep waiting here,
with the moon in pretty paper,
(it wouldn’t fit in a bag for life),
though the icy air around me snickers,
because I love you,
and I’ve lost the receipt,
and I love you,
you know?
Do you know that?

Response to the June Writing Prompt from CreativeWritingInk.co.uk


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Poetry Competition Winners

Hola amigos,

Thank you so much for all your entries to my second poetry contest. It was great to see so many wonderful entries, and to see all the great work you’ve been doing.

You can find the winning poems below, and hear a reading of them on a future episode of my podcast.


Overall Winner

Like, Comment, Subscribe – April Blue

All these girls

will tell you how to be a girl

on their youtube shitshows.

Tie up your hair.

Break out the blush.

Buy all this shit.

Put all this shit all over your face.

All over your fucking face

bitch.

I LOVE YOU.

I COULDN’T DO THIS WITHOUT YOU.

Do you want to be ugly?

No?

Then you better like.

You better subscribe.

You better comment.

I’m going to stay here and wait.

I’ll be waiting to reply.

You better fucking comment.

Buy the expensive miracle cream.

Smear it on your ugly face.

You’re ugly.

Did I tell you that you’re ugly.

You’re all so beautiful.

I love you.

I love your face

but buy the cream.

I got it for free.

You have to buy it.

It costs more than the camera I’m using for this video.

Buy it.

BUY IT.

BUY THE CREAM.

Paste the cream over your tears.

Leave a comment.

Subscribe.

I LOVE YOU.

Leave a comment.

Put your thumbs up.

Put your thumbs up.

Click the thumbs until your thumbs break.

Buy my entire description box.

Let me tell you how to be beautiful.

Don’t you DARE tell me

that the way I sell you to my advertisers and sponsors is ugly.

Don’t you DARE tell me

that the way I sit before you in free creams and free surgery is ugly.

LIKE ME.

CLICK ME.

BUY ME.

All these girls

will tell you how to be a girl

on their youtube shitshows

but you don’t have to listen.

I promise.

You don’t have to listen.

You can find more of April’s work at her website.

-x-

Commended Entries

These Beauties – The Chito World

THESE BEAUTIES

The girls in my life, are poetry,

Endless lines of rhymes,

That tell of beautiful stories,

Skin tone, amazing,

Reflects the tone of poems,

That tell of heroes,

Who left their spears,

To lift fallen enemies.

The girls in my life,

A species rare, but not extinct,

Characteristics, distinct,

And like wine, ripe,

Beautiful with age.

The girls in my life,

Are music to the ears,

Their laughter, a resonating echo,

That resounds in the dark lonely moments,

Soothing balm to the heart,

Their hearts, are fountains of joy,

Like the sunrise, they are beautiful,

And like the sunset, calm and peaceful.

The girls in my life,

Are sisters and friends,

They love, passionately,

And care, deeply,

They are a blessing,

They are gems, gifts,

They are the best.

You can find more work from The Chito World at their website.

-x-

Seafoam – Sharon C Cowdery

i’ve been gentle
i’ve been the moon
in silence and modesty

i want to burn
i want to sing the sun
rather than mourn it

i want my thoughts to race,
my words to shout,
and my actions to dance

i want to be radiant
i want to be “too much”
rather than “not enough”

i want to become
who i was always meant to be
the soft glisten of sea foam
that heals the wounds of summer heat

i refuse to continue
stuffing my throat with pillows
to restrain myself for your benefit

i am the over-analyzing drama queen
i am the altruistic, romantic psychopath
and i am far, far too much

You can find more of Sharon’s work, on her instagram.


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A Funny Thing Happened On The Way To The Bus Stop

I thought he wasn’t breathing.
I cursed myself for checking out of science class,
like I knew it all,
and for panicking on the phone,
as the kind but clearly frustrated paramedic tried to teach me how to see life.
A whole town walked by.
Different faces,
same “not my problem” look in their eyes.

I was locked in an hour,
that was only fifteen minutes,
waiting for flashing blue,
to tell me he was okay,
I did the right thing.
Everyone else was a bastard,
but,
I was great.
I was really, really great.

But,
I was just a girl,
judging others for shrugging,
for walking by,
like I couldn’t be that whole town,
walking by,
on any other day.
Judging the rest of the world,
like I knew it all.
I just made a phone call.
I just made a phone call.
He survived,
by the way.


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Cherry Coke

A whole can of cherry coke,
ran down my throat,
as I tried to recapture the taste,
of our Friday night cinema trips,
where your hand was in mine,
and also in my popcorn,
and we were alone at last,
watching a world where we were possible.

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In the dark,
on sticky floors,
we have been to Baltimore,
longing for each other,
in a little loft,
with a sea monster sized secret.
Who can forget that time we went to space?
I kissed the tip of your nose,
as it crinkled at the sight of alien afterbirth,
and when we were almost caught,
sharing a cell with “Woke Latin Legend”, Paddington Brown,
you held me close as the lights went out,
lighting the whole of London,
with the oceans you call eyes.cherry coke jennifer juan
I drink my cherry coke,
but it doesn’t taste the same,
now that we’re out in this world,
apart.
The tattoo on your arm,
clear as day,
in the daylight,
belongs to someone else,
and I,
unmarked,
but unavailable to anyone but you,
must wait,
for Friday night,
when my heart will race,
and my cherry coke will taste like we are possible,
once again.


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Poetry Competition Winners!

Hola Amigos,

Today, I’m very excited to share some of our contest winners with you.

I had a lot of great entries, and it was so exciting to see so many of you creating so many wonderful things. It was very hard to narrow it down (I had to ask Little Muffin for help… ), but below we have the overall winner, by Laura Kowski, as well as two commended entries by Gabby Taylor and Liz.


Overall Winner

Millennial pink – Laura Kowski

Millennial pink
We’re all on the brink
of a hunger that’s turning us insane

The social generation
Lonely by association
Drip fed pink hearts as we starve off desolation

Anxiety
and depression
The fuels to our obsession
for how we’re perceived through a screen

YOU DO YOU
Isn’t that what they say?
As we buy all the same stuff
so we can all do us
in the same way?

We taught skin to touch screen
to connect,
or so it seemed
But instead created distance
And now can’t feel a thing

That’s a lie,
We’re offended!
Every word you type will be remembered
Don’t you know Millennial pink is not a colour gendered?

How dare I bite the hand that feeds me
Unattainable standards
of three by three beauty

And unsatiating bytes
of modern-day poetry

written

with more

space

than substance?

Give us this day our daily bread
as soon as small fingers can swipe
Through feeds that leave us hungrier than we’ve ever been
Oh, the Millennial life!

Millennial pink
it’s too late
I think
I’ve already lost my appetite.

You can find Laura’s blog at https://thelanguageofl.wordpress.com


Commended Entries 

Breathe – Liz (@maybeyellowsnotahappycolor)

It’s a simple thing to do when you’re heads up in the clouds
But right now I’m just buried in my thoughts that act as crowds
Suffocating, crushing, on all sides of me
Making my vision blurry
It’s hard for me to see
Where I’m going, where I came from, where I am today
There’s too much to consider, when nothing’s here to stay
Whatever will come is certain to go
It may hurt at first but will push you to grow
So stay where you are and don’t move a beat
Because the present is the focus and there’s too much to complete

You can find more of Liz’s work on instagram at @maybeyellowsnotahappycolor


War – Gabby Taylor

My mama told me of the war.
City on it’s knees.
Nobody ever the same.
All gone.
She never dreamed,
that we’d do it all again.

Of course we did.
Of course we did.
Of course we did.

More war.
More war.
More war.

Why?

Just because.

You can find Gabby’s blog at https://shinegabby.wordpress.com/


You can hear all the above entries on this week’s podcast, which should be available on Sunday night!

Besos,

J x


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